Thursday, July 19, 2012

The Truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth....

Hi. Today, my feelings were hurt by someone I care about and value and respect. I won't get into what this person said, but I know with all my heart it wasn't meant to hurt me. It did hurt me though. Usually this type of hurt would drive me to go grab a treat, a cup of coffee.... something, or anything to stuff down my feelings or emotions. This also would of been one of those moments when I could of been triggered to go into discouragement and rebel by giving up my journey. BUT..... I am NOT going to do that! Hurt and all, it doesn't matter. Maybe what I really need to do instead is to share with all what my goals are for health and fitness. Maybe I haven't done that. I am not sure.

Here it is....

In my lifetime, I have watched others lose lots of weight, only to put it right back on. Why? Well, from what I could tell is that I watched them ban certain foods from their life until they reached their goals, then they just went right back into old habits, because now they are "normal". I am not "normal". and I will never be "normal". This is the first thing I have realized in this journey. Forever and a day, even if and when I get to be skinny, I will always have to keep myself on the "straight and narrow" path. I am not willing at this moment to give up all sugar, all "bad" for you food. Others may be able to walk that path, but I am not one of those people. At least at the point I am at right now. I want a food diet (not a weight loss diet) which consists of all food. You may ask why I think that way, because I think all food is acceptable, but not all food is profitable. When I am choosing healthy choices even 75 percent of the time, it's a heck of a lot better then choosing crap 75 percent of the time.

My goals for health and nutrition are this.... a balanced diet. I am most certainly choosing healthier and healthier food options. I am LEARNING how to cook healthier. It isn't instant, it's one step at a time. I rarely buy anything that is a box choice anymore. I eat whole wheat pasta, and real potatoes. I eat veggies and fruits all day long, rather then chocolate, chips, etc. After I workout I have a Builder Bar by Clif Bars for now, I plan to start buying some P90X bars though very soon.

My plan is to get fit by working out and building muscles. I want to see how hard I can push myself. This is so new for me. Anyone who knows me would know that I hate exercise. I hate it so much. Or I have. Something changed. I want to exercise, I want to sweat, I want to get my blood pumping and my heart pumping strongly. It feels good (in a weird sense). Weird for me anyway.

I have never been athletic. period.

Sleeping used to be my favorite thing to do. lol.

So, let's see.... Can I have that piece of cake at my husband's graduation? Yes. Why? Is it because I deserved it? No. Is it because I EARNED it? No. Simply because we were having cake to celebrate his promotion. Can I have cake every day? No way! Can I have cake once a week? No way! I probably wouldn't even choose that once a month. But I can choose something else. My goal is to have dessert of some type once a week. I realized that it's all in the amount I am eating. Choose good portions. Learn balance. Don't allow food to control you, you control what you put in your body. Simple as that.

Do I have a long way to go to reach my goals? Yes. I am being honest and say, I do. Do I want a quick fix it? No, I really don't. I have a lot of bad habits to fix. I have a lot of bad mindsets to fix. I have to fill myself with positive thoughts about myself, and then I will half won the battle. Every day is a new day.... Thank you Jesus that your mercies are new every morning.

Is my story inspiring to you? Or do you see me as one big failure because I ate one piece of cake today?

1 comment:

  1. I am totally inspired! I agree with everything you said about lifestyle changes being important...we can't just do better for a season with exercise and food, we need to change our whole mindset.

    I've also been pondering how easy it is for a busy mom to put herself last all the time, with the result that her health suffers. You are making time to get healthy, which in the long run greatly benefits your children. I need to find time to exercise regularly. I haven't done it but I'm thinking about it. I really don't like exercising so it is easy to choose to do something else.

    God bless!

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